Lately I seem to be having constant reminders and lessons in self love and acceptance, so I’m just going to go with it and see what happens. I shared this throwback picture on my Facebook earlier today and the message that came with the picture is so dear to my heart to had to share on the blog too. So this shot was taken almost a year ago, as part of a portfolio update photo shoot and I really just LOVE it so much, it’s one of best shots for sure.
I’ll tell you why it’s my favourite. Having suffered from body dysmorphic order pretty much my entire life, this is probably the first time I stood in front of the camera and felt comfortable in my own skin. The photographer made me feel so safe and I think this was the first time ever I had a shoot where I wasn’t worried or stressing about how I looked. It was also the first time I ever did anything as risqué in front of the camera and instead of feeling shame I felt strong, powerful, sexy even. I wasn’t worried about looking fat, or my lack of boobies, what will people think/say or any of that irrational stuff that comes with my condition. I totally owned it and I don’t care who knows it. It’s a bumpy road this journey of self acceptance and self love but this day was a turning point for me and I haven’t looked back since, taking it one day at a time. One thing that I’ve noticed about myself, is that I’m REALLY good at putting on a front….you know that I’m totally ok and always got it together type of front? I realised very early on that I am great at being the pillar for other people which is awesome, but it’s time I started extending that same courtesy to myself.
It’s so easy for us to judge each other and make assumptions in this social media world, but please be kind to each other, you don’t know what struggles other people are dealing with behind the scenes. Not everything is always as it appears.
I would love to know what your lessons/aha moments in self love are, leave me a comment below and let me know. Till next time my lovelies, love the life you’re living! Xo