Life took over!
Hey, remember me? It has been a while since I wrote a post but I can honestly say that I’ve missed you terribly. I absolutely love blogging and missed the the process of creating and connecting with my online friends.You see, over 2 years ago I started this blog with big intentions and an open heart, but somehow, somewhere down the line, life took over and I got sidetracked, like seriously sidetracked.
I feel like a total fraud! Yes, i said it. I have been hiding out and lying to myself because I’ve been gripped with fear. What is this fear you may ask? It’s the fear of rejection, the fear of allowing myself to be open, to be vulnerable and in the process opening myself up to being judged and criticised. The fear of not being good enough, and being rumbled as a fraud. I started writing this blog post around 4 months ago and I’m only just getting round to finishing it now.
I don’t know about you, but the time has flown by so quickly, and so much has happened I can hardly believe its been so long. I have spent many hours trying to figure out what makes me so afraid to put myself out there and I’ve come to the conclusion that the answer to that question doesn’t even matter anymore. That very question has actually served me as a perfect excuse to procrastinate and not get anything done, ok maybe that’s not totally true, I have done shit, I just haven’t blogged.
The title of this blog says..hey, remember me? So I thought I’d take this time to try and jog your memory and update you on what I’ve been up to and kind of set the course for where we go from here. The past couple of years have definitely been a whirlwind but in a good way. My family and i moved into a new home that I absolutely love, and of course that meant new school for the little man, and really a whole new environment and community. The move has been surprisingly smooth and we’ve taken to our home like ducks to water:).
We’ve done quite a bit of travelling and have had fun experiencing new cultures and seeing new places, it’s been so exciting to watch my son grow and enjoy travel as much as I do.
The past several year really threw me a huge curveball in the health department, and that’s been a big part of why I have been missing in action. I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease called Hashimoto’s and Hypothyrodism, my liver was underperforming and dealt with a cancer scare at the same time, (I will write a separate post on this).
As you can see, I haven’t been sitting on my bum doing nothing, life has been challenging me and really making me take stock of what’s going on around and within me. One thing I have come to realise and embrace is that all we have is now. I don’t say this to be a Debbie-downer or anything like that, just that sometimes we have to stop and really treasure each moment that we have, being honest with ourselves about where we are physically, emotionally and mentally is important.
I have been thinking a lot about moving forward and how to do so with this blog, and I think it is time to take it back to basics. Sharing openly is really all i’ve ever wanted to do, and somehow I lost track of that. Putting way too much pressure on myself to produce something that is not in alignment with who I am has been my biggest mistake.
What does that mean for Amanda Millie? Well, first and foremost I want to reconnect with YOU, I want to not only share my own journey as a (mother, a fitness junkie, travel addict, believer in self love and so much more). I also want to know about yours, interact with you and build a beautiful online relationship with you that is based on honesty, authenticity and vulnerability. Half the time I have no idea what I am doing to be doing to be honest, but I am intent on taking consistent action and growing/learning as I go.
Enough with all the mushy stuff already, Amanda *rolls eyes*, sometimes I down know when to stop. I am working on some exciting content for this blog, and though I wouldn’t call it a relaunch, i’d definitely call it a reintroduction. Amanda Millie (the blog) is all about life in all its entirety, having fun, travelling, going through the ups and the downs, getting fit both physically and emotionally, eating well and growing in personal relationships.
One of the things I am working on, is having a set structure and trying to post at least once a week on here, being more proactive on creating content, and not being afraid to be ME. I am on a journey of healing my body and practising all that self love that I avidly preach to my friends on myself. My fitness journey is evolving from just wanting to be healthy and look great naked;-). I now have to be heathy to pretty much save my life. It is kind of the same thing if you ask me….it is all perspective right?
I am exploring a lot more of the holistic way of living and being very conscious of what I put in my body/eat.In a way, all my health problems have really actually woken me up to myself and i’m sure in time I will find a way to be grateful for them.
There we have it beautiful people, here’s to moving forward with purpose even when we don’t know the final destination. If you resonate with any part of this blog post, please do like it and share it with your friends. Until next time, love the life you’re living even when it’s throwing curveballs at you.