catching up

catching up!

Hello lovelies, It’s been so long since i wrote a post, a month to be exact I can hardly believe it myself, so please bear with me as I’m working on catching up!

I haven’t deliberately stayed away, I promise. Life just took over and I’m sure you know how that story goes, between having 5am call times/7 days a week, working 16 hour days and still finding the time to be a mommy whilst holding onto to my sanity, something had to give. Saying that though, I have had a pretty amazing couple of months and I have definitely learned a lot about myself and making my dreams a reality, I can’t wait to share my news with you in due time.

I found this cute notebook at TKMaxx and loved these words.

I found this cute notebook at TKMaxx and loved these words so much I had to buy it!

So the blogging may have taken a backseat momentarily, but I am back and I’m here to stay baby!!! I may have also stalled at day 28 of the 30 day blogging challenge, but I’ve decided not to beat myself up about that and still fully intend to cross the finish line with my head held high. Speaking of the blogging challenge, look out for my next blog post where I’ll share my experience on the challenge and how I got on.

Whilst I was away from the blogging world I realised that if I really want to take this seriously, I’m going to have to make some changes. First up…PLANNING! I have a ton of posts I want to share with you, but I’ve noticed that I tend to get so bogged down by other commitments I end up feeling overwhelmed and nothing gets done. I’ve gone and made myself a little planner, the intention is to blog at least 3x a week, which for me seems doable. Next thing I really want to do is to CONNECT and COLLABORATE. It can feel so lonely in this virtual world of ours, with nothing but me and my laptop, usually in my bed after the lil dude has been put to sleep. To be honest if it wasn’t for the awesome support from everyone in the blogging challenge group, I probably wouldn’t have made it this far. I am a social creature by nature and there’s nothing I love more than connecting with likeminded people, sharing ideas and supporting each other. My intention is to make more of an effort to connect with other bloggers and step out of my comfort zone. I have so much to learn and I’m totally ready and willing to take things up a notch or two.

I also want to make time to LIVE! I am a little ocd sometimes, especially when i’m in work mode, so much so that I miss out on so many experiences. Getting my priorities straight, finding a happy balance between work, play and family is my idea of bliss. 

Now that I have set my intentions, you have my full permission to hold me accountable and call me out if I start slacking again, but for now I think its time I signed off and got on with some writing. 

Until next time, stay blessed and Love the life you’re living! xoxo

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Lately I seem to be having constant reminders and lessons in self love and acceptance, so I’m just going to go with it and see what happens. I shared this throwback picture on my Facebook earlier today and the message that came with the picture is so dear to my heart to had to share on the blog too. So this shot was taken almost a year ago, as part of a portfolio update photo shoot and I really just LOVE it so much, it’s one of best shots for sure. 

I’ll tell you why it’s my favourite. Having suffered from body dysmorphic order pretty much my entire life, this is probably the first time I stood in front of the camera and felt comfortable in my own skin. The photographer made me feel so safe and I think this was the first time ever I had a shoot where I wasn’t worried or stressing about how I looked. It was also the first time I ever did anything as risqué in front of the camera and instead of feeling shame I felt strong, powerful, sexy even. I wasn’t worried about looking fat, or my lack of boobies, what will people think/say or any of that irrational stuff that comes with my condition. I totally owned it and I don’t care who knows it. It’s a bumpy road this journey of ‪self acceptance‬ and ‪self love‬ but this day was a turning point for me and I haven’t looked back since, taking it one day at a time. One thing that I’ve noticed about myself, is that I’m REALLY good at putting on a front….you know that I’m totally ok and always got it together type of front? I realised very early on that I am great at being the pillar for other people which is awesome, but it’s time I started extending that same courtesy to myself.  View Full Post

 

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Reflecting and reminiscing today and I realized how supported and divinely guarded we are ALL the time, even more so at the times we feel alone. Looking back at the last 6 years, I barely recognize the girl I used to be. 

That girl (not woman), was sooo concerned about appearances, so easily swayed by other people’s opinions and too concerned about pleasing everyone at the expense of her own happiness. She had no idea of who she was or who she could become. I remember being constantly unhappy, always judging/comparing myself to other people which of cos made me even more unhappy as I always seemed to fall short. View Full Post