5 top tips for dealing with loneliness 2Hello lovelies, so today’s post is my 5 top tips for dealing with loneliness, simply because we all experience loneliness at one point or another, some of us more than others. I have a lot of friends living in London who are from all different countries around the world, and the one thing they all talk about is dealing with some kind of loneliness. Being far from loved ones, in a big city can bring up some feelings of loneliness, this cold weather doesn’t actually help much either. So here are some tips that have helped pull me out from that dreaded dark cloud. View Full Post

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Amanda Millie

Lately I seem to be having constant reminders and lessons in self love and acceptance, so I’m just going to go with it and see what happens. I shared this throwback picture on my Facebook earlier today and the message that came with the picture is so dear to my heart to had to share on the blog too. So this shot was taken almost a year ago, as part of a portfolio update photo shoot and I really just LOVE it so much, it’s one of best shots for sure. 

I’ll tell you why it’s my favourite. Having suffered from body dysmorphic order pretty much my entire life, this is probably the first time I stood in front of the camera and felt comfortable in my own skin. The photographer made me feel so safe and I think this was the first time ever I had a shoot where I wasn’t worried or stressing about how I looked. It was also the first time I ever did anything as risqué in front of the camera and instead of feeling shame I felt strong, powerful, sexy even. I wasn’t worried about looking fat, or my lack of boobies, what will people think/say or any of that irrational stuff that comes with my condition. I totally owned it and I don’t care who knows it. It’s a bumpy road this journey of ‪self acceptance‬ and ‪self love‬ but this day was a turning point for me and I haven’t looked back since, taking it one day at a time. One thing that I’ve noticed about myself, is that I’m REALLY good at putting on a front….you know that I’m totally ok and always got it together type of front? I realised very early on that I am great at being the pillar for other people which is awesome, but it’s time I started extending that same courtesy to myself.  View Full Post

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Stalker

If you haven’t read part one of this story then I suggest you go read it over here first before continuing onto my scary stalker, part two. So guys, at the end of part one I had literally blocked John from every single communication mode I could think of, and I really did think that was it….and it was for a while, the calls stopped, no more messages, nothing. I actually even forgot he even existed, and life carried on as normal.

There was a random creepy message on my Facebook once, from someone with a name I didn’t recognise, but I immediately knew it was John as the message just said what he had been previously saying before I blocked him…..he wanted to know how my son was doing and if he could visit. Seriously??? I blocked that person as well and forgot about it.

Fast forward to about a year later, that’s right an entire year passed by and I was sure I had put that ordeal behind me. So I reconnected with the friend of mine whom I had met John through, and as with all reunions we started reminiscing about the past. I wasn’t sure if she was aware of my scary encounter with her cousin, and I didn’t really want to talk about it much, but curiosity about his whereabouts got the better of me and asked her how he was he was doing. Oh boy, I almost wish I hadn’t asked…. View Full Post

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Stalker

If you read my blog post on 20 random things about me, then you probably know how obsessed I am with true crime documentaries and that kind of stuff. As obsessed as I am, I never in a million years envisioned anything remotely close to that happening to me….but it did.This is my scary stalker, part one as its so long, that actually materialized out of nowhere. Let me start from the beginning, I think you’ll see what I mean once you read the rest.
So about 7 years ago, I was in college at this time and really not loving it so much. I was so bored, so as a result I started making frequent trips to visit a very good friend of mine out of town, who’d just had a baby girl. I LOVE babies, omg I can’t get enough of them, they’re just so ridiculously adorable it’s crazy. Anyway, spending time with my friend and here newborn really lifted my spirits so I came to spend more and more time with them.

As you know, the more time you spend with someone, the more sort of integrated into their life you become. Well, this one random day a male cousin of hers came to visit so we were introduced to each other. First impressions of this dude? Hmmmmn nice guy I guess, very polite and actually quite the gentleman. I mean he wasn’t my ‘type’ romantically speaking, but I remember thinking how refreshing it was to see that chivalry wasn’t dead. He was significantly older and seemed quite God fearing and solid in his faith. One of those guys you won’t see at a club living it up, but will definitely be front row in church on Sunday morning. View Full Post

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10 things I wish could tell my 16 year old self actually came about during a hilarious throwback conversation with a friend of mine at work today. We were pretty much reminiscing about some of the fashion crimes we committed during our teenage years. Does anybody remember that Christina Aguilera song, Dirrty? OMG!! I was so obsessed with her, I literally wanted to be her. Ewwwwwwww! Those super low rise jeans? Cringe!!!!! Anyway, it got me thinking….if I had a time machine and could go back and talk to my 16 year old self, what would I tell her? This is what I came up with…...

1. Act your age.

Please don’t be in a hurry to grow up. Enjoy being young, play more, watch Sabrina the teenage witch, have fun and just be a teenager. Growing up is so overrated, I mean seriously! It comes with responsibilities, bills, bills, more bills, oh and did I mention bills?? You get the picture right? View Full Post